Michelle

I havent posted a journal entry in forever, I have spent the last hour trying to catch up with everyones journals. Now that I am all caught up with everyone else I will tell you a few facts about me.

- I am unemployed right now living in Rockland (of course) and I am still a total nerd and procrasinator, as well as horrible at spelling and grammar.
I spend most of my days looking up worthless information on the internet and watching even more worthless television programs.

on the upside I am pretty darn happy I must say! Life is good and spring is just around the corner. I have much to be thankful for this year.

I just wanted to complain here a second.

I love music I love to listen to it all the time even while sleeping.

Work has decided that no one can have a radio now becuase one person doesnt like it.

What do I do? I am pissed. Perhaps I am overreacting about it....I just feel like I have a right to have music to work too.

What would you do???????

Well another year has passed by I completed 7 classes and have been working full time and selling some stuff on ebay and reading a lot. I feel rather boring but I am content at this time.
Highlights of 2006
1.Going to Vermont and seeing Lake Champlain
and the magic hat brewery and my first time at a hooters
2.going to Mt. Katahdin and finally going to "the county"

3.Going to see a psychic
4.Going to the white mountains....I just love it there

I feel like I did not do everything I wanted to do
I have that feeling every year, I always expect something extraordinary to happen for me, but it doesnt.
I think the real problem is that I put very little effort into things I want and I just expect things to transform or happen on their own.

I like this quote "If you do what you have always done, you will always have what you have"

Its so true, If I want something I am going to have to take responsibility to make it happen. I all actuality I may have too many things I want here is a partial list

take 10 classes this year
learn to play guitar or violin
take a trip somewhere that involves flying
find a job i love
buy an investment property
take a real estate course in adult ed.
take a bookeeping/accounting class
take control over my health/lifestyle
learn to speak french
increase my sales in ebay by 3x times
save aside 20% of my take home pay
learn to sew

and of course I want to win the powerball LOL

I would also like to recommend a book to anyone who hasnt read it. "poor dad, rich dad" there is a whole series of books on setting yourself financially free getting out of the rat race etc.

Well that was my update.....

I can't even remember the last time I posted on here. I guess life has just been going by without a lot of thought lately, sometimes I feel like I am on auto-pilot. I wish sometimes things were just a bit slower that I had more time to enjoy and savor my days. I find myself working, going to school, studying, etc. and in my free time doing mindless activities surfing the net, playing video games, watching tv. I long to find something meaningful to do perhaps volunteer, explore more of the unknown features of the midcoast. I dont even seem to read books for pleasure anymore. Perhaps I am just due for a nice long relaxing vacation. Just a few weeks and it will be here. I just hope it goes slow and relaxing for me. I wouldnt mind going away up into the mountains to a nice B&B where there are some walking trails and a fireplace to read by.

I haven't written in quite some time now. I just felt the urge to write a bit of an update on me. I have been working quite a bit this summer, same place. I have also started to sell some stuff on ebay, and I just finished up 5 classes as well as a leadership course. This spring was very intense for me, all work...but I must say I took it seriously for once and got all A's. In high school...well I wasnt into it at all I could have cared less. Now I am not getting any younger and it has come to my immediate attention that a degree is so necessary to make any kind of money in Maine. I plan to take 4-5 courses a semester as well as work full time. My ultimate goal is to be either a psychologist or a nurse practicioner certified in mental health.

It just seems like I have so many things I need/want to do, but either I have some time management issues or I just perhaps am expecting too much. I really need to start an exercise regime, I am getting fatter and fatter every day! I need to start planning my wedding. I also need to start saving for retirement.

I really want to get started on my reiki certifications...just need to finish the book ASAP, I also want to get into learning French, I took two or three years in high school...but I am rather rusty now. Not to sound crazy but I would also like to train myself to be more psychic and use more brain power than I do now. Perhaps I am just asking myself to do too much at once.....

Sometimes I wish I was stupid. Why do I have to care to better myself. I wish I didnt know any better.

Any Advice out there?

Where is everyone on myspace.com or something?

Can anyone recommend a decent but not expensive hotel in either bangor,portland, or bar harbor
i am trying to plan a short trip just to get out of rockland for a few days

I watched a move last night called Grizzly Man I highly recommend it its the story of Timothy Treadwell and his summers spent with the grizzly bears in Alaska.

Happy New Year to everyone. I have had a lot of time to think of some resolutions, I always make resolutions but for the most part I never stick to them. Well I swear even if it kills me I am going too keep all of them. I will be posting them below for your reading pleasure.

2006 Resolutions

1. Keep all resolutions below
2. Lose 100lbs in 2006. (I know that sounds gross and disgusting that I need to lose that much weight, but if I dont get honest about my problem, and do something now then I am going to hide in this fat shell of a body and die of a heart attack at 30, plus I want to set a wedding date for this October.
3. Save $300.00 every month
4. Finish paying off all old credit card debts.
5. Exercise at least 4 times per week. ( I have a gym membership I have used once so far in 2006 :(
6. Get control of my fibromyalgia issues
7. Drink less alcohol and soda
8. Do not smoke even one single cigarette no matter if i have been drinking, or really stressed out.
9. No lame excuses for any of the resolutions being broken
10.Take 6 college courses( I am currently signed up for 2 this semester)
11.Let go of the fears I have that were created by past experiences and learn to trust completely.
12.Have more patience
13.Make more time for myself
14.Learn French
15.Play my saxophone again
16.To have my hair long enough to cut to donate to locks of love.

I guess that is it, I think that is enough I guess I have my work cut out for me.

Merry Christmas to everyone reading this. Another year has passed by and I can think of so many things I wish that I had acomplished. I will accomplish them in 2006. I am going to be 25, I am wasting the best years of my life working at a dead end job, and being fat. I need help, I need to help myself no I will just have to help myself now. I am taking classes again starting in a few weeks....the fat part is the hard one, its easy to be fat. Its hard to make healthy choices and excercise. I obviously have taken the easy way out half of my life.....The time is now.
PS I am a loser ....see above

Comments and suggestions are welcome.

did anyone hear that China coast in rockland was shut down? for rummaging in the shaws dumpsters? anyone?

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I am on vacation this week, its been so great. Its so nice to not have to go to work. It depresses me to think about going back, but I am just going to enjoy the time off I have left. I just got back from New Hampshire I went to the Mount Washington area, went up the Cog Railway, only partway up though. It has already been snowing up there so the train could only go so far up. I went to Settlers Green Outlet Shopping Area too, that was alright started Christmas Shopping at least. I think I may go up to Hollywood Slots tomorrow and check it out it definately sounds interesting, I am surprised that it was even approved to be built, it will definately be bad for people who have serious gambling problems, it will be so easy to get instead of driving down to Foxwoods, flying to Vegas. There is a tast of gambling in Maine now. I consider myself a recreational gambler a few scratch tickets there, powerball ticket there, throw in a bit of off track betting, and now slots.....is this too much, will it push me over the edge into a full blown gambling frenzy? I guess you will have to stay tuned. ....

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Happy 4th of July, I hope everyone is having fun celebrating today. I have yet to leave the house. Lately its been hard for me to leave the house, and return phone calls. I think I am catching Karen and Fallyns disease. I have options/invites for today, but I kind of just feel like being alone. I guess that is a bit selfish, but my parents are not home anyways, I dont know where they went, and my fiance went to his grandmothers, I could go up there...but again the motivation is not there. Then I kind of felt like going to Barnes and Noble, I wonder if they are even open today. I would like to see War of the Worlds too. Its so beautiful out, I wish someone would force me to leave the house, this is what every weekend is for me. I am a shut in. I dont know what the hell is wrong with me??? I need help!

I was wondering if anyone could answer the following questions? It may seem stupid to some people but here it is

Why do you have to install games into the computer? Why cant you just play them from the CD they came on?

Perhaps some of you have wondered what I am up too, maybe some of you have not. But for those that care I am still in Rockland, still working at the same place. I do not think that anyone that reads this lj knows that I got engaged last month. I couldnt be happier right now, he is absolutely wonderful! No date has been set as of yet.

I plan to make the very most of this summer as I consider the many things that I could accomplish this summer. Every year I make some sort of half assed plan to do things, like take photographs and frame them, go for a hike up in Acadia, go to the beach...even just once, go the Childrens Chapel and have a picnic.

The thought of summer just upon me makes me want to do so many nice things, and I cant wait to get started, I felt like I spent most of the winter cooped up in the house reading and watching movies, I can barely stay inside now.

Since I am not that much of an outdoorsy person...can anyone help me out with some things to do?
(I do have a few friends these days....so group activities are fine to suggest. )


Also anyone have any recommendations on a vacation spot...close by and cheapish...like canada or bar harbor?

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Has anyone seen people wearing leg warmers this year? Apparently they are making some sort of comeback....at least according to wal mart. I saw leg warmers for sale there. I am not sure what to think. Why are they there....anyone know?

Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone! Dont forget to go to see the Nutcracker Ballet in Augusta or Bangor in Dec. I have never been and I am going this year!

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